also, GET WELL SOON NURSUKASHI ERLIANA. *hugs*

only god knows how much i love you.
but then again, i think you know.

& countless times i've said, but i do feel so blessed and lucky, to have you right here with me.

special update:-

someone thanked me for the support, and confesses he is an avid follower of my blog.
during holidays.
here he is, angkat king, MARK.

i just want to say
GOOD LUCK to NURSUKASHI ERLIANA
for tomorrow!!

don't be nervous ok!
even though u look so cute when you're nervous. (:
*hugs*

a young man wrote, for hours, paragraphs after paragraphs, only to delete it hours later.
because repeated was, how much she meant to him, of how thankful he is to have her, of how great she made his life. of how she shines brighter than the sun, and her eyes twinkles prettier than the stars. of how different she is, and how she, makes him feel.

but he realised, the countless paragraphs were mostly beautified, & could be summarised in three words, five vowels, three syllables; its simplest, yet meaningful form.

"I love you."

bb syg, i know that i am not your boyfriend, but i don't see it as an excuse for me not to love u exceptionally.
we're going to terus kahwin kan, btw. :P hee. <3

don't worry.

I have eaten already. :)

dear blog,

I have to get back to you because something seems wrong with Tumblr. So blog, why is it that sometimes, i just feel that nobody takes my words, opinion, or views seriously? Why is it sometimes, i felt ignored and my presence taken for granted.

that aside,
Recently, I dreamt about Afiq. Afiqhizami, that is. He was on the other side of the road, and there is a bridge. We both went up the bridge and we walked towards each other. His face, looks tired, his eyes seemed sad. Then I woke up.

Al-fateha. amin.

Recently, there has been a glitch. In me, and you. I can understand why.
& i'm surprised though, by how far you're thinking about us. :)

& i am glad. real glad that you are still here with me.

and blog, today, i am planning not to eat. someone would be working, and she would not be eating as she doesn't have cash. All because of me. So if she is not eating because of that, then I am not eating too. Say what you want readers. Call it stupidity. Call me dumb. But if she is going through the day, without a meal, then i too will not.

because with you; like i said, it's not only the happy times i wanna be with, but even the hardest, saddest, & shittiest times there is.
& we'll go through it all together.

Dear god,
please stop giving her nightmares. please make her nights peaceful, and well. please take care of her always. every single moment there is. please.

Dear you,
I am sorry. & no worries. I am always here k. I will take good care of myself, and no, I will not leave you ok. Who would? InsyaAllah. have lots of rest each time you're at home ok.
Love you bb. *hugs* <3


how relevant you are in my life & i, in yours; they don't have a clue of.

the lack of entry, of posts, is not because i am lazy to update, nor do i haven't anything to say about life; about you.

but it's just that no matter how hard i tried, no matter how hard i squeezed my brains, my wits,

I just couldn't come up with a poem, a paragraph, a sentence nor a word, that would be sooooooo beautiful, that would be comparable to how you had made my life: so fun, so meaningful,
so blessed.

'til next time.