finals(again!) tomorrow. i really hope i could perform. but then again, there never is any chance for me to win as compared to the others, i am simply slacking and growing fat.

if i lose, then 2 months to train. but idk if i can because work is taking alot of my time away. for trainings. and you.
at times, i feel like quitting. but we all need money right?

so yea, back to tomorrow. i know climbing is something i enjoyed, but i would lie if i say i do not want to win and improve. because i believe, if i can't do this, then i can never survive in open men.
i do wish to be like those great climbers.
where i would be able to make those watching me climb sweat and get pumped together with me. i want to be able to make their hearts race when i get a grip of that last tile. i want to make them scream and shout and celebrate the moment i grab hold of the last handhold.

& i sure want to kick those foreign climbers' ass. :))

so good luck aidi for tomorrow.

bb will be resting at home(i hope). but i have a feeling we'll see her there tmr. but its ok. u need to rest.